Saturday, April 11, 2009

when talking ceases...

I miss good conversations.

Well, thats an overstatement. I miss good conversations with the opposite sex. That is more clear.

I love talking about stuff with someone who has insight about what you are feeling and is in a similar situation.

Yes, I talk to my lady friends and that helps a bunch but I like sharing. I recently discovered how much I liked talking to someone of the opposite sex about, life, music, etc (I know that sounds strange but my shyness prevented me from speaking to cute smart boys..for most of my life)

The reason I say this is because I was having a conversation and someone/thing popped into my head and I was like dammit I wish I had that person to talk too. Alas, I do not and it makes me really sad. I miss the person and the conversation because I really felt that we had valid and interesting conversations and for the first time I felt wow..I am being spoken to sans alternative motives. I could be wrong. Who knows...I felt smart and fun,etc. I had felt that only once before.

oh wells..

In other news...I don't know what to do with my life. I am feeling skeptical, unsure and scared of what to do. I feel out of options and confused with grad school. I love it but next semester..I do not know what to do. Its internships or independent study and thesis prep.

oye! i am stressed. poops...

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I know what you mean. Sometimes I just want certain people to talk to and just talking to anyone want help solve the problem.