Monday, December 30, 2013

Closing it out

In news that is not a surprise to anyone, 2013 doesn't have much time left.

I will bid this year a fond farewell. It wasn't always easy or happy but it wasn't a total wash. I enjoyed several parts and loathed others.

For 2014, I want things to change. I feel they are starting to and that's great motivation to make more changes, to keep moving forward and to keep positive.

I will not bore you with a long reflective statement about 2013. I don't really have one. It happened and that's that. I've learned things and I've lost things. The typical year. Although, I am grateful to live through the ups and downs. As we all know, the things that try us, mold us and give us strength.

 Do I want 2014 to be typical? Nope..not at all...I want it to be different, fresh and exciting. I want new adventures and I also want to write about them.

2014...I am coming for you. Let's do this.

Thursday, December 26, 2013

A few thoughts after Christmas....

For the past hour I've been attempting to write a post-holiday blog and I've come up with nothing. We now see why I haven't been writing in a long time.

I am itching to leave my parents house because I can only take so much of them and I miss my bed. I love the holidays but there is a nice collective sigh of relief when they are over. The pressure I've placed on myself to make perfect baked goods and food and buy perfect presents fades away and now I can enjoy time away from work and hopefully spend some time with friends. Heck even cleaning and organizing my house sounds like a party. (I think that may be because I want to move soon and I should start sorting things...)

With the holidays over, I would like to keep the spirit of giving and light-heartedness going and keep what's important in the forefront of my thoughts. Excel sheets and html are not the most important things in life....I do not want to get overly wrapped up in work. I can' is not worth it. I need to make changes and hopefully the end result will be positive.

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

A few thoughts before Christmas...

At this time of the year, people tend to want to take a look back at the year. Was it a good year or a bad year? Did it contain a lot of momentous occasions, etc? I, on the other hand, want to take a look forward.

For the first time in a long time, I want to plan ahead and do things. This is extremely rare for me. It could be that I am unhappy in my current career trajectory and the only person who can change that is me. I need to decide to what I want to do. Right now, I am very unsure. Am I scared? Heck yeah.

So, as I meddle around and wonder what I will do, I will offer up some some thoughts.

I hope in 2014:

1. People will leave behind bacon and kale as the new food fades. Seriously, quit it.
2. Miley forgets how to twerk.
3. The history channel plays history once again.
4. Idiots will forget how to use social media or have shows on cable and stop spewing hate.
5. I bake more.
6. I see more places across the globe.
7. I see more of my friends.
8. I live more.
9. I love more.
10. I dance more. (Seriously, three times a week is not cutting it right now. :) )

Happy Christmas!!

Attempting to get back on track...

I often feel like I lack passion and creativity. I used to care about writing. I used to want to write. Now, I never write. I don’t even want to. I would love to sit down and write and produce something. I just can’t. I don’t know what it is. I think it’s beyond writer’s block. I do not work in a creative environment. We conform to ridiculous “rules” and regulations regarding words, images, design, etc. After working in such an environment, you no longer have the desire to even try.

So, I sit here and wonder: what can I do? What should I do? Should I just write to write? Do paltry attempts add up to something? Could I product a diamond in the rough? Or maybe a low grade emerald at least?  Do I announce a New Year’s Resolution to WRITE EVERYDAY!?? We all know that resolutions rarely pan out but I itch for change.

As I stare at this familiar screen, I begin to wonder if writing was just a phase. But, isn’t life just a series of phases? Or do constants remain during those phases? Why is everyone so into kale right now? And why do some atheists act more like religious zealots than religious zealots? I have too many questions and not enough answers.

For now, I should take solace in the fact that I wrote something that broke the 200-word mark that was not an irate email.  Yay for me!! 

A final thought: Britney Spears got her life on track after a disastrous few years. I think I can muster up something after a few years of “writer’s block” and lackluster comma usage.