I was perusing a certain social site and a certain person's image popped up and I freaked out. I know in some sense I was hoping to see this image but in another sense I was hoping not too.
I want to stop feeling upset about it all. I really do. I feel so trapped, like I cannot move on or go forward because I have this stupid hopefulness about the whole thing. I know, I am naive and also brokenhearted. I have no past which leads to my bleak future.
Ugh..all of this makes me want to curl up into a ball and just cry.
I just have this urge to leave it all and run. I have nothing holding me here...I have no connections and if I did they are all but gone now.