Because I am not so technical...

I cannot seem to link things....via the email. Dammit! i would like to be able to sign into my bloggy via gmail..nah thats not happening!

oh well...in other news, I am attempting to prep for next semester. so far..so good! i need to make up some new assignments and revamp others. I need to go into my office tomorrow and look at stuff. I have a folder but I am not sure where I put it. My desk is such a mess. I also need to edit some poems. I should submit some to my school's literary journal. oye!

i noticed..

that I need to edit this better. damn! too many typos.

signs....

I try to ignore weird coincidences. I try not to look to much into things that remind me of people in my past that have left but...lately....they have been hard to ignore.

Every time I turn on the radio, look at a street sign, something reminds me of a person. Is the universe trying to tell me something??

I do not get it.

2008...the year that made me

2008.
The year that shaped me.
I grew so much this year. I cannot make this flowery or poetic. It is just plain and simple facts. This year was momentous for me both personally and professionally.

I made many self discoveries and accomplished a lot of goals.

The most important thing I did was put myself out there. I am better for it.

I quit my job and started a journey of education and I love it! I found my niche! For once, I am happy with myself and my accomplishments. I did what I set out to do.

But on the personal side of things, good grief. I have not shed so many tears in a while but I have to say they were worth it. Well, most of them were.

so to sum up 2008, I did the following:

finally went full throttle into grad school and even TA
started dating (yes..started..shut it people...)
Quit my job of 6 years
Realized I am stronger than I thought I was
Made some amazing friends and met some intriguing and interesting people
Stepped in the right direction to make myself happy


in 2009 I will try to:
Learn French
Find what makes me even happier
Complete grad school
Travel
Get stronger physically and mentally.

and much more

2008 you were as bad as everyone thought you were...at least not for me.

Live the life of solitude...

I love words but sometimes words can hurt more than anything.

I heard some words last evening that cut me and made me rethink a lot of things in my life.

I do not know what to do. What i do know is that I am really hurt.

I know I am naive. I think some people are different but those who I think are different turn out to hurt me the most.

I should not shed tears over simple words but when your biggest fears and reasons for not doing so many things in life get spoken to you, it hurts.

decisions need to be made.

But one thing I can focus on is my french. Yay!

Semester Summation

Learning
Loving (well..not really)
Liking (a lot)


I worked. I learned. I think I found my niche.

I hope I found my niche.


my eyes hurt. this semester was a lot of reading and writing...well...that will soon be my life.

i have life decisions to make and I do not know what to do.


Hopefully..it will all works out.


i had such good ideas of what to write here..but alas i forgot!

vivid dreams and good memories

i ask myself over and over again..why haven't i moved on. I know they have. i have stopped trying. I did not want to but I am the fool.

when will i move on? limbo is not a game i like to play.