Inspiration...

Queen Elizabeth I you inspire me everyday. A bastard child then the queen of england and a woman in the 16th (?) century your agency...strength..valor, loyalty...honor, love....chaste

queen elizabeth if i do 1/100 of what you did..i will have done something with my life.

I am such a pushover...

I suddenly realized this today. I will go back to people who have done me wrong or hurt me. wow... I believe in second chances, even if it hurts me. I want to believe in the good in people. I know its there.

Is this a flaw of mine or good trait?

I also take things too personally which then is a detriment to me because I internalize things. i care too much. oh well...i am who i am.


I am too afraid to do a lot of things. I fear judgement and rejection. I think it is because I have been rejected so many times before. that is another oh well moment.

i am also in a stressed out moment. haha i need to calm down. take a breather and step back. perfection is not the norm nor is it attainable.

i cannot help but think....

that I will succeed. I know these are good thoughts but honestly, these are the only thoughts I can have. I cannot fail. I worked for too long and hard for what I want. I know i want to write, although that is not always clear in this blog. I write fairly bad on this but..hey...I do not always shoot for perfect. In my school work, I do. This is usually my therapy session.

anyway..oh school..you are my life.

My life is so different now. I like it. I work a lot but I am learning. I am concerned I am not giving it my all.

also i want to learn a new grammar tool each week!!! i am such a dork!!!

gerund.....

I am a fan of writing letters

I have this new concept in my head..writing letters.

I want to continue doing pieces as letters. I have one started. It is from my vagina to me. Its actually very funny. I have another one to my other from me. Its not so funny. hahaha


I suggest that no one spends 7 hrs in library. Its just wrong. Rhianna ringtones will go off at high decibels and it ruin your concentration.

damn..my grammar is horrible on this blog.

oh wells..

i have come to a conclusion that the worst day at my current job is far better than any day at my old job. hehe!

halloween is fast approaching and my costume is set!! yippee!

work, work, work

Work consists of my entire life. I do like it but it is taking its toll.

In other news, there is no other news. I work and do school work.

Also I have reached complete and total geekdom. Right now I am on a PC laptop which I just bought but behind me, making glorious noise is my MAC...all lonely. yes, i have 2 laptops...why? i would like to that a stupid class i am taking.
I do not love the web or writing on it.

oh wait.......

ha!